getting ready..

That was then...

This is now... (also add Kanyin, Luke, and Matt)

My mom asked me today if I was ready for everything that was going to be happening... it hit me hard. I am leaving home....forever, I know you can always visit but sometimes its just not the same. My mom and I have gotten really close over the years and I kinda feel like I am loosing my best friend (don't get me wrong I know I am gaining an eternal one but you know the feeling...) All I can say is I am glad Matt works with the Salt Lake Express so I can come home whenever I need to. I just don't want to miss all of the family get together on Sunday watching a movie and having Dad make the best popcorn, or coming home from work and having Katelyn welcome you home and wanting to turn on another show for her... usually Bolt or "the princess show", or going shopping with my parents because I just want to spend time with them... there is just something about living close to home that I hate leaving but everyone has to go though it sometime right?

I don't know what I would do without them right now... all my friends are back in Idaho so all I have had is my family- and I wouldn't change that for the world! They have done so much for me- especially helping with the wedding I would not of been able to do it without them! I am blessed to have the family I have and even more blessed to be gaining a new one just like them!

Today I just kinda hit hard... but I am excited for my new adventure and to start my own family!

I LOVE LOVE LOVE my mom! :)

Ill miss being around these lovely ladies everyday! I look up to them so much and hope to be like them someday, I have the worlds best sisters!!

It's about time!

Sorry folks! Life has been a tad bit CrAzY lately and I have hardly had anytime to do anything for myself or so it seems... haha Some recent happenings: Sorry if I blog about the same thing I can't remember what I have and have not blogged about yet..
We had a Craven family Bridal shower for me and got some super AMAZING things! I can't wait to use it all and turn our little apartment into our home! :) It was also really fun to get together with all of the girls! :)
Lots of baby blessings! Luke and Kanyin were blessed a week apart so we enjoyed some good company and food 2 weeks in a row!! :) And Matt was able to come down so it was a extra bonus for me!

Stadium of FIRE!! aka freaken AMAZING! I got to go with my roommates for a girls weekend! It was such a blast and good to all be together again! It's crazy to think about where we started and now where we are... 4 freshman girls living on their own, trying to meet new friends, leaving the family behind, and being excited and scared at the same time to meet boys and now... one is married, I am almost there (22 days!!!), one is up lifting and strengthening testimony's of many young women at a LDS camp, and one is working towards going on a mission.... who would have thought that things would have turned out the way that they did! Life if truly un expected but simply amazing!
I also got the opportunity to go to Lagoon with the Bedke clan! It was just like old times I miss being around all of them all the time its crazy how much they have all grown, Maddi was just a little tot when when moved and now she has already started school! Its good to know that i'll still always be CB (it stands for Craven Bedke, its like my adopted name! I got it when Ashely and I first became friends and it has stuck ever since!)

So pretty much I am living the dream! I am excited to be married FINALLY and get to start my new life with Matt, but I am also scared at the same time... or maybe its just nerves but is the good kind! Its all I have worked for my entire life and now its only 22 days away... so much to do and so little time! Thank goodness for my angel mother and sisters who most likely put more into this wedding then I do ( I want to do more its just hard when you work from 6-3 everyday...) I hope all is well with you and can't wait to see you shortly! Keep the faith and remember these are the good old days you will wish you had back so enjoy the journey! :)