Monday, November 15, 2010

let me carry you

I don't know how many of you know about my sweet grandma but she is really sick and has been for a while now (ever since she fell in Aug.) Well its finally hitting me that she is not going to make it much longer she has put up a good fight and is ready to see my grandpa again and help us from heaven. When my grandpa passed away last year I was up at school and had some of my cousins here with me so it was a little easier to handle but this year they have all moved away and I found myself alone and I felt really alone to. I didn't want to tell anyone what was going on until my best friend Ashley walked in on me talking to my dad and crying so I broke down, couldn't hold it in any longer and we just cried together. I didn't know anyone else knew till tonight... I thought I could fake being okay pretty good until we got back from FHE and I lost it again lucky everyone was out shopping except Ashely so yet again we had a cry fest. She had told me that our FHE brother are a little aware of what was going on and if I needed anything to call. Thats when I knew I needed a blessing. I called them up and they came running over! I could tell they really cared and it was not just routine. We talked for a while and had good times telling memories and stories which I really needed! After they asked if there was anything they could do and that when I asked them to help me with george (my car... he had died earlier and I needed him to work so if I have to hurry home I can) just when we walked outside everyone came home from the store and helped us there was a good 10 of us out there all huddled around trying to find a solution to why george was not starting. Soon I relized that they all knew my situation and was extremly helpful in whatever I needed. Boys kept stopping by offering to help me with my car and anything else I might have needed. Just earlier that day I was talking to my friend and wondering how anything else bad could happend.. its not been my week! and he kept saying he will carry you if you put your faith in him and the song "let me carry you" by jenny phillips kept playing in my head all day. I know that he is carring me and helping me though my hard times. I don't know what I woudl do without the friends I have to just lend a shoulder to cry on. I am so blessed and I am starting to see the positive in the situation rather than the negitive. The blessing my brother gave me was right what I needed to hear, I know that that was from god and he was comforting me. I don't know what I would do withouth this gospel and the knowledge of forever families and I am so glad that I have mine forever!

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